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[18 Jul 2009|01:25pm]
Yesterday was one of the hardest days emotionally that I've had in a long time.
I cried, and cried, and cried some more.
I cried for what was had, what was shared, and what possibly could have been.
I let myself grieve the loss of love and friendship.
And then I let go. Whether we are able to remain friends or not will unfold with time.
I know though that we were not meant to be, and even though there was so much love
sometimes that's just not enough. I woke up today and I just knew I was going to be okay.
It might be a rough few days or weeks, but I'll make it...I'll be just fine.
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[16 Jul 2009|11:47pm]
If we both wanted this,
then why does it hurt so much?
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"We are and always will be The United States of America" [05 Nov 2008|01:39am]
This is history in the making. We are witnessing an event that many people never thought would ever happen, and yet we still see ignorance and hatred. Barack Obama is President of our great nation, and it is well deserved. The people voted, majority ruled! If you're going to make statements like 'Im moving to Canada', then please just go. Negative statements like such do not help our country become one and what we need most is unity. If you're going to throw around words such as 'socolist' and 'terrorist' then maybe what you should really be researching is 'ignornance' and 'hatred'. It is time to rid our nation of these narrow minded views. It is time to come together, both democrats and republicans, to work together to help our communities and fellow Americans...the doors that this will open for all Americans will be nothing short of amazing! :)


And on another note, I thought McCain's speech was terrific and that he stood tall and proud. I am so proud to be an American!
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oh my. [12 Aug 2008|11:08pm]
so what happens next?
this could be very interesting...
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I can't be the one who's always taking chances. [01 May 2008|12:04pm]
[ mood | confused ]

It's been over two months...
and now you want to start playing games?


It's time to grow up.

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summmmer time...livin's easy. [17 Apr 2008|05:29pm]
School is almost over, and I must say this has probably been one of my best semesters yet.
Which is quite a surprise with all the shit that has taken place in the last few months.
I find it very odd how boys/men always seem to appriciate you so much more once they realize they no longer have you.

On the other hand though it makes it nice when you find a good one.
And you are a good one :)

I hope everyone is doing well.
Good luck with finals!
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yummmmy. [01 Apr 2008|03:12pm]
[ mood | busy ]

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

we go down together

hey boy. [05 Mar 2008|05:32pm]
I think I like you.




Oh, here we go again.
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ajshedufk. [28 Jan 2008|02:05am]
I hate that I can't stop all of this.
I feel like it's over-powering me and I have no control.
I'm tired of crying.


Make it all go away.
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tired. [14 Nov 2007|10:53pm]
I never thought I'd be here,
and now I can't see myself being anywhere else.
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fools like me. [29 Oct 2007|06:29pm]
[ mood | blah ]

You are a priority,
And I think I might just be an option.

I'm remembering now why I don't do these.
It just hurts more this time around.

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fools like me. [15 Oct 2007|06:02pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I re-read some old posts from years ago and I can't remember being that dumb.
Have we really grown up that much?
And will I look back at this entry in year to come and think the same thing.
Life is strange.

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you lie through your teeth. [28 Sep 2007|12:51am]
[ mood | confused ]

I have never in my life had trust issues.
If anything my issue has been that I trust too much,
and for some reason I don't believe 50% of the things that come out of your mouth.
I think that must mean something.

I'm boring, I don't know when this happened but I don't like it.

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too much feeling, not enough words. [21 Jun 2007|03:31pm]
[ mood | destroyed. ]

i feel numb.
void and unfilled.
i don't want to do this right now,
i can't do this right now.
this pain is crushing.
and you could care less.

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ohhh my. [18 Jun 2007|12:05pm]
so what happens now?
something good I hope.
because this is everything I've been waiting for.
for you.
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umhm. [10 May 2007|08:09pm]
And I never thought I'd feel this safe again
In a million years
And lying next to you, and hoping that it's true
And with you I'm truly in my element, my element with you.
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ha. [01 Mar 2007|07:14pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I think the way you conduct yourself is so sad, and I wonder if you're ever really happy with the decisions you make. I'm starting to realize that most people don't want to spend the time needed to get to know someone. They don't want to waste the energy it takes to really care about someone. Things take time, and you'll miss out on so many good things until you can figure that out.

Being a hardass is only going to get you so far.
wake up, or grow up-either would work.

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i know im a mess he don't want to clean up. [20 Feb 2007|12:15am]
[ mood | sick ]

i wish that i could write you
all these words I will never say

I wish you understood that everything you do
gets to me, in a big way
that I analyze every word you say,
and every word you don't

and I might be crazy,
but I think you do the same.
that's not a look you can fake.

but I'm not her, not good enough.

I'm in too much of a rush,
time to slow down.

I'm turning 19 on Wednesday.
I hope this year brings something meaningful.

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who would have thought. [22 Jan 2007|12:54am]
I can tell you not me.
but I'm not going to get ahead of myself
Lets see how this thing plays out.

lacking attatchemnts.
lets see who gets pulled down first.

this one might hurt.
stubborn.
boundries.
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falling over backwards for you, falling over everybody else... [30 Jan 2006|10:14pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I love how nothing really surprise me anymore. Nothing makes me excited, are really happy. Everything is just very blah.

Someone told me today that they think I'm one of those people that acts really happy and outgoing all the time, but who's really just not.

..I think they're right

It's also the same person who I can't figure out for the life of me. You would think he likes me by the way he acts, but i just know he doesnt. I'm so confused, and I don't know if it's worth runining the firendship so I can tell him "how i feel". I guess I should just be used to it. It's not like I ever get what i really want anyways.

Hm. I also hate how I fucking miss you. I don't know if I miss our friendship, or just us in general but it makes me sad that we can't even say hi to eachother in the fucking hallway anymore. How lame is that.

I'm going to UCF baby :) i applied for housing today and I must say I am quiet excited. Me and Caitlin are going to have the hottest dorm ever!

that's all? probably not but I just don't feel like venting anymore...

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